Myalgic Encephalomyelitis/Fibromyalgia

My quality of life has deteriorated greatly. Prior to becoming ill I worked full time, played volleyball 2-4 nights per week, walked/ran 5 & 10 k's, did back country hiking/backpacking, cooked and baked daily, kept a tidy, clean organized home, had a healthy and active social and family life, and could afford to do whatever I wished.

I've been struggling financially, I've lost most of my friends, I'm in pain every day, I can no longer work (not even part time), my house is very dirty and messy (I can't physically do many household chores nor can I afford to hire someone), my husband can't help much as he has been working 2 jobs since I got sick. I am not physically able to do any sports or physical activities.

My emotional state has suffered greatly as I was always very independent and started working at 10 years old. To learn to rely on someone else for financial and physical support had been humiliating and heart breaking. I no longer feel like a contributing member if society.

I pray every day for a cure or even some sort of medical treatment that would allow me to get back to living. At this time I feel that I'm existing not living.