me, just me

I have suffered many serious physical injuries.

The dysfunction along with pain control my life. The medical community has done me great harm from sexual abuse, harassment and bulling. My challengers are due to looking good, what does that mean? At a glance I stand tall, try to walk as normal as possible and I speak my truth. This does not make you friends when I refuse treatments that either have been tried or make no sense.

My pain is... due to the damage in my spine from C1 down to S triggering Radiculopathy throughout my C's and lumbar, this is extremely painful causing hot piercing electrical pulsing , down arm and legs. Weakness that take my energy away.

I was sexually assaulted after my last injury. which made my PTSD a lot worse. Oh, and due to the assault I am unable to go to a physiotherapist, I can not be touched. Mental therapy is helping.

I use doctor prescribed narcotics to keep the pain at a bearable level. I have been at the same mg for the last 19 years. I use the least amount I can.

I am tired, often cranky, my humor is twisted and dark. I have a good support friend team.I did tai chi for 10 years, walk most days.